A good Saturday,

I must say I am having a great Saturday even though Tom at work and I do wish he was home... but what can you do when work needs to be done.

Today is a rare day where so far for 20mins the boys are napping at the same time. I just finished cutting up a butternut squash which I am going to make some soup with. The music is playing in the background and everything just feels so tranquil right now, a lovely feeling and I hope it continues while I start to scrub the floor.....scratch that Jonas just woke up. I'll try and finish this post later.......

Okay so lets get back to my day...There a lot to do but everything just seem so relaxing and not sure if it old soothing music like the song collide that is playing right now in the back ground or if it's the sun I don't know but it nice. Now if only I had a washer and dyer close by where I could do laundry and not carry two children down and back with me it would be awesome haha.

Not to much new with us...we are going to attempt to see the BOSS concert on Wednesday night while a friend watches the boys but we'll see how it goes. We might come home early where I am not sure Jonas will drink milk I have pumped for him...since he doesn't take soothers etc. (for those that don't know, drink from bottle is completely different sucking skills than breastfeeding and not all babies will do both.) so we might have to leave if Jonas gets really hungry b/c we don't use bottles. I just have one b/c it came with the pump.

I am now down past my pre-pregnancy weight post drugs(they make you gain some) from Jonas and only 4 lbs away from what I was before Noah. But I don't care much about that, I work more on toning up which I am thinking some things just might not tone back up to what they were before two kids haha. But we'll still keep working on it. Next month I need to try and start running again where I had to stop about two weeks ago b/c I hurt my knee(I have no clue what I did, it just killed to walk a lot or even try to do a light jog). And now I have sprained my thumb 3 times in the last week and it now has to be taped by doctors order since I hurt my thumb last in the doctor office in front of her. Let just say there was a very loud crack and she thought I broke it and so did I. I am on a roll with this one.

Tom's in the City all next week and hopefully I'll be meeting up with him on Thursday night with the kids but it might be Friday and staying in the hotel with him. I hoping the kids will be good while he's gone. I hate cooking for one so I guess I should make a lot of left overs this weekend.

The boys are doing great as ever...I have to say I am so grateful to having two awesome children. I have seen other kids and wow is all I can say when it comes to jealous and sharing. Noah has small moment but not many where he'll take something from Jonas. Most of the time though he always gets toys for his brother and gives it to them. Noah very good with his please and thank you and now even say you are welcome here and there. I am very proud of our little boys. He makes me feel like I am actually doing some stuff right LOL. Jonas's head is swiveling like mad as he tracks his brothers every movement and you can tell he wants to go go go with him. Time is just flying with them and I am very thankful that I get to spend every moment with them, I am happy with our decision of me staying home and not going to work. Somethings would probably be better if I worked but I wouldn't be happy and for Tom and I being happy doing something you like to do, is important to us, as long as the bills are paid and things are okay in our eye I'll stay home with our family. I am also happy and don't regret going to school either. I use to get teased for going to university and massage school and truly just wanting to stay home with the kids. I think education and being educated is important and is never a waste of money or time. Plus you never know what your future will hold for you.

Well I have to run b/c since I can't work on the laundry, there is plenty of other stuff that needs to get done and it won't get done it's self. When Noah wakes up I'll drag everyone to the laundry room, to do four loads...ugh it builds up so fast but that's better than last weekend when I carried six loads down.

Well I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Old Fashion????

I find it really funny and I really am a minority down here where we live, or it really feels that way.
I have been asked these question when Noah was born and even more so now....what question you might ask.

1. Noah was 8 months I think when I was asked when are you putting him into preschool, and they were talking in a few yrs from the future either. Some of the kids we know are already in preschool. There are certain schools that allow children to go in a ratio of time to their age, so a 1yr can go 1 hour aday etc.

2. who helps you during the day?

3. what nanny/daycare/ etc do I have or use?

4 what cleaning service do we use?

5. Who takes care of the baby at night?

Okay I am like what? What do you mean? It's me and me and me and me and me....

So now that Jonas came I get the same questions and more. Than they are stunned when I tell them it me and two kids at home alone, with no help what so ever except when Tom's home.

I don't understand everyone down here has a cleaning service that at least comes once a week(don't understand this b/c then they say they have to go home and clean before the cleaners come....umm that is stupid in my opinion). As well as everyone child is in preschool at the age of 3. I can just see the shock in everyone's face down here when they find out Noah will still be home with me at 3. Age 4 for we might do preschool, I haven't decided yet about that but he's not going now or at age 3.

this is a converstation I had with another mom at the park two weeks ago.

mom: hi
me :hello
mom: your kids are cute how old are they
me 20months and 2 months
Mom: oh wow, you are like us but ours are 16 months apart( I think that is what she said)
me: how old is your youngest(the oldest was off with their dad)
Mom: 9 months
me: wow and she walking already
.....Can't remember what other little chit chat happen....

Mom: so you have help
Me: no our family live far away
Mom: oh ours do too but we have an au pair
Me: ( not sure what to say so I said) oh nice
Mom: So your oldest goes to preschool
Me: No
Mom: He's home with you too
Me:yes
Mom: so you have both of the home with you during the day and you have no one helping you
Me: um yes(I am thinking, why wouldn't I have both of them home with me)
Mom: wow that is amazing
...... Other things where said but you get the jist of it.

Now some of this you might think, well yes some have no choice and their kids need to go to daycare and stuff b/c both parents work(in that case I wouldn't think twice or be confused), but you have to realize that I am talking to all stay at home mom/dads. I just really don't get it and these parents boggle my mind. Why have children and get others to raise them when one parent is still at home? I just don't understand some people that I talk too, and they leave me thinking that they only want their kids around when it's convenient you them(it's how the conversation goes and their way of staying stuff that leave me thinking like this). Anyhow I been just laughing more and more lately when some looked so shocked that I have two kids at home with me with and have no childcare or maid service. To me it's just a no brainier, I have kids, I am a stay at home mom and things need to get done. I have come to the conclusion that I must be old fashion or something b/c we want to raise my children ourselves.

Why am I so happy????

Got to make it short, but this I could write on forever if the kids let me.

I think I have been pretty truly happy for the last 5 years really maybe more but I have really noticed it since we moved here that I found myself and became happy with myself over all. Don't get me wrong I might be sad from time to time or frustrated but over all I am happy. Lot's of stuff makes me happy.

I am Happy because:
- out of all the people in the world Tom and I found each other
-Tom and I don't fallow the give and take but the give and accept
- that I get to do my dream occupation
- I love having dinner ready for Tom when he comes home(because I know when I am out or if I worked outside the home how nice it is to come home to a hot meal)
-Tom and I have pretty much the same passion for life, travel and so much more
- I don't rely on material things to make me happy

I could go on and on here but there's not enough time in life to share all. But life is grand if you accept it for what it is and open up your heart and let happiness and love in, even during bumpy parts of the roads one might travel from time to time(I have had my many many share of these roads and in many ways I am thankful for them because I have learned from them). We are having a lot of cold rainy days here and I can say that I have even found happiness in that too. Rain seem to wash the earth and let it shine it's happiness.

I did it

I finally change my blog lay out to something I did and like. Took awhile where it was done one handed while Jonas slept in the other arm and there was a lot of trail and error. LOL


Anyhow I have lots to say but not sure how to say it or even explain it so I'll just say this.

I am so HAPPY so GRATEFUL so CONTENT and so IN LOVE.


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