A good Saturday,

I must say I am having a great Saturday even though Tom at work and I do wish he was home... but what can you do when work needs to be done.

Today is a rare day where so far for 20mins the boys are napping at the same time. I just finished cutting up a butternut squash which I am going to make some soup with. The music is playing in the background and everything just feels so tranquil right now, a lovely feeling and I hope it continues while I start to scrub the floor.....scratch that Jonas just woke up. I'll try and finish this post later.......

Okay so lets get back to my day...There a lot to do but everything just seem so relaxing and not sure if it old soothing music like the song collide that is playing right now in the back ground or if it's the sun I don't know but it nice. Now if only I had a washer and dyer close by where I could do laundry and not carry two children down and back with me it would be awesome haha.

Not to much new with us...we are going to attempt to see the BOSS concert on Wednesday night while a friend watches the boys but we'll see how it goes. We might come home early where I am not sure Jonas will drink milk I have pumped for him...since he doesn't take soothers etc. (for those that don't know, drink from bottle is completely different sucking skills than breastfeeding and not all babies will do both.) so we might have to leave if Jonas gets really hungry b/c we don't use bottles. I just have one b/c it came with the pump.

I am now down past my pre-pregnancy weight post drugs(they make you gain some) from Jonas and only 4 lbs away from what I was before Noah. But I don't care much about that, I work more on toning up which I am thinking some things just might not tone back up to what they were before two kids haha. But we'll still keep working on it. Next month I need to try and start running again where I had to stop about two weeks ago b/c I hurt my knee(I have no clue what I did, it just killed to walk a lot or even try to do a light jog). And now I have sprained my thumb 3 times in the last week and it now has to be taped by doctors order since I hurt my thumb last in the doctor office in front of her. Let just say there was a very loud crack and she thought I broke it and so did I. I am on a roll with this one.

Tom's in the City all next week and hopefully I'll be meeting up with him on Thursday night with the kids but it might be Friday and staying in the hotel with him. I hoping the kids will be good while he's gone. I hate cooking for one so I guess I should make a lot of left overs this weekend.

The boys are doing great as ever...I have to say I am so grateful to having two awesome children. I have seen other kids and wow is all I can say when it comes to jealous and sharing. Noah has small moment but not many where he'll take something from Jonas. Most of the time though he always gets toys for his brother and gives it to them. Noah very good with his please and thank you and now even say you are welcome here and there. I am very proud of our little boys. He makes me feel like I am actually doing some stuff right LOL. Jonas's head is swiveling like mad as he tracks his brothers every movement and you can tell he wants to go go go with him. Time is just flying with them and I am very thankful that I get to spend every moment with them, I am happy with our decision of me staying home and not going to work. Somethings would probably be better if I worked but I wouldn't be happy and for Tom and I being happy doing something you like to do, is important to us, as long as the bills are paid and things are okay in our eye I'll stay home with our family. I am also happy and don't regret going to school either. I use to get teased for going to university and massage school and truly just wanting to stay home with the kids. I think education and being educated is important and is never a waste of money or time. Plus you never know what your future will hold for you.

Well I have to run b/c since I can't work on the laundry, there is plenty of other stuff that needs to get done and it won't get done it's self. When Noah wakes up I'll drag everyone to the laundry room, to do four loads...ugh it builds up so fast but that's better than last weekend when I carried six loads down.

Well I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Old Fashion????

I find it really funny and I really am a minority down here where we live, or it really feels that way.
I have been asked these question when Noah was born and even more so now....what question you might ask.

1. Noah was 8 months I think when I was asked when are you putting him into preschool, and they were talking in a few yrs from the future either. Some of the kids we know are already in preschool. There are certain schools that allow children to go in a ratio of time to their age, so a 1yr can go 1 hour aday etc.

2. who helps you during the day?

3. what nanny/daycare/ etc do I have or use?

4 what cleaning service do we use?

5. Who takes care of the baby at night?

Okay I am like what? What do you mean? It's me and me and me and me and me....

So now that Jonas came I get the same questions and more. Than they are stunned when I tell them it me and two kids at home alone, with no help what so ever except when Tom's home.

I don't understand everyone down here has a cleaning service that at least comes once a week(don't understand this b/c then they say they have to go home and clean before the cleaners come....umm that is stupid in my opinion). As well as everyone child is in preschool at the age of 3. I can just see the shock in everyone's face down here when they find out Noah will still be home with me at 3. Age 4 for we might do preschool, I haven't decided yet about that but he's not going now or at age 3.

this is a converstation I had with another mom at the park two weeks ago.

mom: hi
me :hello
mom: your kids are cute how old are they
me 20months and 2 months
Mom: oh wow, you are like us but ours are 16 months apart( I think that is what she said)
me: how old is your youngest(the oldest was off with their dad)
Mom: 9 months
me: wow and she walking already
.....Can't remember what other little chit chat happen....

Mom: so you have help
Me: no our family live far away
Mom: oh ours do too but we have an au pair
Me: ( not sure what to say so I said) oh nice
Mom: So your oldest goes to preschool
Me: No
Mom: He's home with you too
Me:yes
Mom: so you have both of the home with you during the day and you have no one helping you
Me: um yes(I am thinking, why wouldn't I have both of them home with me)
Mom: wow that is amazing
...... Other things where said but you get the jist of it.

Now some of this you might think, well yes some have no choice and their kids need to go to daycare and stuff b/c both parents work(in that case I wouldn't think twice or be confused), but you have to realize that I am talking to all stay at home mom/dads. I just really don't get it and these parents boggle my mind. Why have children and get others to raise them when one parent is still at home? I just don't understand some people that I talk too, and they leave me thinking that they only want their kids around when it's convenient you them(it's how the conversation goes and their way of staying stuff that leave me thinking like this). Anyhow I been just laughing more and more lately when some looked so shocked that I have two kids at home with me with and have no childcare or maid service. To me it's just a no brainier, I have kids, I am a stay at home mom and things need to get done. I have come to the conclusion that I must be old fashion or something b/c we want to raise my children ourselves.

Why am I so happy????

Got to make it short, but this I could write on forever if the kids let me.

I think I have been pretty truly happy for the last 5 years really maybe more but I have really noticed it since we moved here that I found myself and became happy with myself over all. Don't get me wrong I might be sad from time to time or frustrated but over all I am happy. Lot's of stuff makes me happy.

I am Happy because:
- out of all the people in the world Tom and I found each other
-Tom and I don't fallow the give and take but the give and accept
- that I get to do my dream occupation
- I love having dinner ready for Tom when he comes home(because I know when I am out or if I worked outside the home how nice it is to come home to a hot meal)
-Tom and I have pretty much the same passion for life, travel and so much more
- I don't rely on material things to make me happy

I could go on and on here but there's not enough time in life to share all. But life is grand if you accept it for what it is and open up your heart and let happiness and love in, even during bumpy parts of the roads one might travel from time to time(I have had my many many share of these roads and in many ways I am thankful for them because I have learned from them). We are having a lot of cold rainy days here and I can say that I have even found happiness in that too. Rain seem to wash the earth and let it shine it's happiness.

I did it

I finally change my blog lay out to something I did and like. Took awhile where it was done one handed while Jonas slept in the other arm and there was a lot of trail and error. LOL


Anyhow I have lots to say but not sure how to say it or even explain it so I'll just say this.

I am so HAPPY so GRATEFUL so CONTENT and so IN LOVE.


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Frustration is building

I don't know why but sometimes I find peoples action frustrating and when this happens it takes me forever to get them out of my head. I almost wish I could have a filter for my brain just like email that will send bits of information(emails) to the junk or spam box right away and you don't have to see them or in my case hear them. Subjects in these emails that I find frustration are mostly family subjects(not meaning our family or families just family issues I hear from ppl all over), irrational thinking/wanting but not trying, or not thinking issue all the way through. Not sure how to explain it or make it clear but anyhow ppl in general are driving me nuts.

I know I am far from perfect, I am not even remotely close to it. But what I can't understand is why people don't think life changing situation thoroughly, and evaluate all the outcomes possible. I sort of laugh to myself but also feel bad for people that do this. What bugs me more is when people ask me stuff and then brush it off and act like it's nothing or simple and than when they reach that point in life that we were talking about whatever it was, they are struggling and don't understand why. This is when I get really frustrated and almost just almost want to say to them I thought it was simple or whatever they said to me about the subject. What makes me really steam up inside is when the don't take responsibility for their action and rely on others to take over for them and do everything. And sometime even repeat the topic. At this point I feel like yelling grow up and be an adult and take care of your reposibilities.

Everything that I or Tom and I do is thoroughly thought about and gone over many many times, and for me I never go into thinking things are a breeze and as well I never expect someone else to finish what we started or take care of my responsibilities or bail us out. I think this better prepares us and me for what life troughs at us or me, it makes me stronger and I feel proud what I/we accomplish everyday.

Now this said I really only have one release that helps me empty my emails that get stuck in my head and this is my running. I don't always want to go but when I do, I can find a clearing in my head and things just seem to file themselves and the junk gets dumped out. Tonight I needed this and really didn't want to go but I did however it was late so I went to the gym and well my body is just ready for the running outside yet. I love bring our children into the world but the strain it puts on my body is hell, truly hell. Anyhow when I got there someone was already on the treadmill so I went on the stepper for 20 mins b/c that the max you are supose to do on a machine in our little gym on the complex if other are waiting to use the machine anyhow the chick that was on the tread wouldn't get off so I was annyoned and left. Good thing I have my exercise class tomorrow but it still doesn't clear my head like my running does. As well I know it's only been 11 wks since Jonas was born but man I wish my body would just heal and be some what normal b/c as most of us women know(or should know) after children things are just not completely the same as before them and that truly truly sucks.

Night folks Not sure when I will be back b/c I am just not into blogging much, I will try to update our picture blog as offen as possible though. I am busy with our family and would rather be with them than on here writing no offense to anyone but it's true. We are all great and doing well and having fun togehter and pretty much loving life. I couldn't possible ask for more. I do dream of things for our family but am in no rush b/c with rush you miss out on the present.

Jonas

He's growing up

He becoming so independent so fast at time it breaks my heart...But I am also so very very PROUD OF HIM!!!!!!

Today we went out and bought some bed rails for our double bed in Noah's room and I was going to start him in his new bed for naps to get use to the idea of sleeping in a big bed. We've been talking about Noah's big bed for a while now but I had no idea that that tonight after installing them he was going to ask to sleep in his big bed. I guess his crib is going to be taken down tomorrow and we'll put it somewhere out of sight for a bit or well a few months until Jonas is ready for the crib and then put it up again. This way Noah won't feel like we took his bed away and gave it right away to his brother. We try really hard to make sure Jonas isn't taking his place in any way. Noah is really a great big brother. e

Where am I???

I have been asked this lately and well I am here but not online that much or when I am it's like a minute here and there as well I haven't felt like being online and I don't have a lot of time for the internet life....am I upset I don't have time for the internet life I once did nope not at all.

Here are our days in a nut shell just so you have some insight on what we do.

Weekends: we are are never if hardly ever home...we are out getting stuff done that I didn't finish or out having family time.

Monday:

7am trying to feed the boys and get everyone ready so I can drop Tom off at work at 8:30am(however we've been getting there 15min late, hopefully we'll get tom moving a bit faster).

9:00 arrive at my exercise class
9:15 getting Jonas into the stroller and Noah on my back so I can work out.
1045 finish exercising and getting everyone back into the car
11 or a little after back home to feed Jonas and get Noah's lunch ready
12:15 hopefully trying to see if Noah will nap.
12:45 hoping to shower if the boys let me, trying to clean and tidy up while holding Jonas pretty much straight b/c during the day he doesn't like sleeping in his bed. As well do tummy time with Jonas and play with him a bit. Oh find time to get my lunch and eat it. If Noah doesn't nap which is a lot of days than I play with him too while trying to to hold Jonas and clean as well. Good thing I can be creative when it works.
3:00 better start thinking what to do for dinner making sure we have all the stuff too.

4:00 get everything set up to cook dinner and start cooking if we have dinner for 5-5:30.
5:30 leave to get Tom at work
6:15 eating dinner
6:45 bath time
7:30 story time and bed time
8pm-10pm cleaning up or hoping to sit for a little bit if a tv show on and passing Jonas back and forth with Tom. Unless he's at the gym or work.

10-11 I go to bed.

12:30am feed Jonas

3-4 feed jonas(had a few night he has skiped this feeding but only a few times)


Tues
A lot is the same except that we head to the park in the morning after taking Tom to work

Wed is the same as Monday

Thursday we have music class at 10:30 or the park in the morning so we get to sleep in a bit longer.

Friday is the same as Monday and Wednesday.

****Now during the week I also try to fit our errands in here and there so we don't have to do the during the weekend. I try to do this on days Noah doesn't nap and sometime his naps are cut short b/c I have to run out or we go before his nap. As well we have play dates at least once a week too. As well, Jonas eats every 2-3 hours and then I am changing diapers too. So as you see not a lot of free time. And as I type this Noah is playing in his crib and I just finished feeding Jonas and he's just starting to look sleep eye in my arms. We've also had the days where Jonas has been crying and I can't even sit and hold him, I have to be walking or bouncing on my exercise ball so on those days cleaning doesn't get done.

So that is what I have been up to these days. And I would change much of it at all. I love being with my boys and seeing all the new stuff they learn each day. I will try to post all the new developments that are going on here I have one post half writen from last week that didn't get posted so I'll try and and post it later maybe to night. well the boys say it time to get off the computer now.

have a great day everyone one.

Wonderful Day

Today is a great day I have to say. I have been with the love of my life for 10 years now...10 wonderful years of passion, friendship, and of course arguments but there is no one else on earth I would want argue with :). I love you sweet heart more and more as the time goes by.

We also got a new nephew too today sometime in the morning. My sister Sandy had her 4th child and to their surprise it was a boy(I have told her all along it was a boy, they have 3 daughter too). I can't wait to meet this little one he was 7lbs 14oz, I haven't heard the name yet but it will be a great name for sure! Extremely happy for Sandy and Blair and I wish I could be there to help you out some. Sandy just emailed me yesterday saying I haven't wrote anything for a while so this one is for you sis.

As well it's Dad Flynn birthday too so I hope you are having a good day too today.

some old videos

Had a bit of time today which I should have been cleaning but I thought all you at home would enjoy this instead.

This is how we try to burn the last bit of energy before bed.

great day

Today was Noah's first music class and it was a hit, He love all the instruments and songs, and love watching the instructor play the violin too. Jonas some how manage to sleep through all the noise for the hour I don't know how but it was a great day out with the kids.

I am excited for next week where I get the green light from the doctor to start my exercise class again. Not completely sure how this will work yet. I think at the moment I will put Noah in the carrier on my back when he won't walk and Jonas in the stroller where I find it harder to carry Jonas on my front than Noah on my back. Got to love what pregnancy does to the good old abs. Anyhow I can't wait to exercise again, even though I know I have to start off slow and work my way back to where and what I could do. I am so bad at that, I just want to be at the level I stopped at. ugh no patience there. I am now a week with out chocolate too woohoo I have kicked the chocolate bug, very hard to do but Jonas helped me out a lot, now I just need to cut more sugar out of my system not that there is much left. But the chocolate is a start.

Still don't have a bike for tom yet but I am hoping soon b/c our weather has been gorgeous this week which is very nice but very bad b/c if we don't start getting rain again for a few months we are going to have huge water problem here in the summer...ugh water rationing and higher water bills not a good thing.

Not much else is going on with us. I am hoping to get out to a movie here with some friends or other mom's (might have to take Jonas with me depending on if I go with friends or other mom's from my exercise group( the movie will be in a few cities away so I wouldn't get home fast enough to feed Jonas).

Well good night folks I am hoping to sleep here soon but doubt where Jonas is a sleep now which mean he'll be up later. I must though the last two night Jonas has been a great sleeper I just hope he keeps it up and fallow in his big brother's foot steps.

We are brothes yes we are.

Both boys at one month old.

A new year...

Not to much to report I have to say. I am still trying to get the juggling act around here balanced. So far kids are fine, most meals are fine, but the house is so not fine. I do a little each day but it doesn't seem like I get much progress done around here. I need to learn my mom's tricks at getting stuff done. It's been cold here and not much sun, so we haven't been able to get out much which makes me feel bad for Noah, because he's such an out doors kid. I should try and clean up the patio too so he can go out there but I never seem to get the inside done enough to make my way to the outside.

Also it hard to get around now that someone stole tom's bike off the patio, so he's has the car most days now unless I can get up and get both kids ready and drive him to work, but than it hard to get dinner ready and pick him up so we need to work something out here....don't really want to buy a new bike if it's just going to get stolen either. ...ugh more decision that have to be made, they just keep coming up and they all involve money, which is so lovely.



Lets see right now my heads spinning with lots of how to do this and what to do about this..Like:

1. will we be able to move??? as the date is getting closer to the renew of our lease, the end of April it's looking like we might have to rent a storage unit put stuff in that and buy bunk beds for Noah and Jonas b/c the house and renting market is just not where we want/need it to be but we'll have to wait and see how much they jack up our rent here first(got to love how they do that each yr) and go from there.

2. Buy a bike for tom and than where do we keep it, is locking it up on the patio enough or will they figure out a way to even get it than.

3. Do we have to buy another stroller...ugh this is why I didn't want to rush into one last yr b/c I knew this was going to happen this year. So what to do. I like the exercise ones b/c they are so easy to push, well you don't even have to push them they just roll. The BOB is so awesome but their double one is side by side and sometime hard to take places like the city on the bus or some stores and will it fold up and fit in our car. Than there is another one called the Phil and Ted Sport which you can buy a second seat for and it does have air tires but the tires are too small to be classified as an exercise stroller and the sun shade hardly covers the kids but it's compacted and folds up like a dream, yet I can't exercise with this one. Big catch is both of these option are very expensive even more then the normal expensive strollers. Whoever is in the baby market is making lots of money lets face it, nothing involving kids is cheap. So what to do what to do. For now I walk with Noah in a carrier on my back and Jonas in the stroller. We'll see how exercise class goes with that operation in a few weeks, should be a sight that is for sure.

4. What type of vacation we'll we get this year and where. As of now I have a trip for Tiffany's wedding in Victoria BC in May(right tiff), and than we'll try to get home sometime this year when the weather is better. Which doesn't leave a lot of vacation time left. I am still dreaming of one day going to Italy but not sure when that will happen and how much fun will it be with taking two kids with us on a trip like that. Oh well I am not stressing over this at all it will fall into place somehow but it will have to be well organized to fit everything in.

5. How long will it take me to get the swing of things and get completely organized into a routine where I feel like myself and have things working like I want them here. This is number five on the list but probably the most important one of all....hahaha so there really is no order to my list.


Well that is all I have time for right now. I got to mop the kitchen floor and get dinner ready. Noah napped today and Jonas finally is quiet in his bed so I took the time to write you guys, but who knows when Noah will have a nap again haha. Hope everyone is having a great week and a great start of the new year.

Happy New year.

It's so hard to believe that it's New Years Eve....where did the time go I don't know. I don't even know where the last four yrs went either. We have been in California for more than 4 years now and I can't believe it. I can't believe we have two children either(two beautiful blessing, that leave us wanting more) one is 18monts and the other almost 3 wks. The older we get and especially since we started a family the time just starts flying by faster and faster I find....I mean it was going fast even before we had kids but adding the children just seem to make the time fly by even more so for the most parts. haha There are still those time where I can't wait for bed time and it seem like it's taking forever but over all, I just can't seem to hold the moments and time in my hand long enough.

I have to say that 2008 was good to us and I hope 2009 will be the same or even better. I hope 2009 goes a little slow but I know for a fact it won't and will probably go even faster, before I know it I will be sitting here writing and it will be the end of 2009 and we will have no babies in the house anymore our little man will be 1yrs old. It makes me sad just thinking about it. I wish the first yr didn't go by so fast or I should say I wish my babies wouldn't grow up so fast. Can you tell I am not looking forward to the school age years. I will be the parent crying my eyes out walking them to school, I guess that mean we'll just have to keep having babies haha.

Since Jonas has been home things have been pretty good besides of the fact I need a live in maid to help out some haha. and I dream of the day I don't have to walk 5min to do my laundry, not the easies with let alone one child but now add another one and oh my, Tom has been a big help in that area but it would be easier if I could just get the laundry done during the day, it's the most easies chore there is. Noah is a great big brother and last night was the first time he asked to hold Jonas but than decided he didn't want to after getting him set up and about to hand him Jonas haha, it was really cute though. Noah's teeth are still slowly coming in and we now have four molars two on top and two on bottom. But still have more to go...ugh most likely he'll just finish and than Jonas will start. Jonas is getting better at sleep which I am really happy about and now if we could just get the reflux that he has under control it would be great. He's growing and i expect that he is really close if not already 10 lbs. Jonas is smiling already and can hold his head up pretty good and for a minute or more at a time. Both boys seem to have really strong neck muscles and head control at birth compare to many newborn's b/c we really don't have to support them that much...sort of freaks us out at how strong they are. Jonas is already inch worms up on us when we are holding him, it's like he can't get high enough. So he'll be like his big brother and reach a lot of mile stones early i predict and well the second child normally does because they want in on the action so I assuming Jonas is going to be really really early at a lot of things. Which I guess won't be too bad b/c than Noah and him can play better, since Noah already trying to share his toys with Jonas and doesn't understand why Jonas won't take the toys he's holding out for him or giving him.

Well I should run I got an unexpected nap from Noah right now and I have so much house work to do and I really don't want to do it and I just really want to nap since Jonas is down too but lets face it the house doesn't clean it's self but oh how I wish it did, hence I need a live in house keeper.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year and Hope 2009 is good to everyone.

Our Christmas

Noah(and his stocking that I finished at 1am Christmas morning) and Jonas in front of the tree Christmas morning

Noah really excited Christmas morning

Noah playing with his wooden train

Noah open his present from mom and dad

Jonas a sleep while Noah goes crazy.

Noah opening his stocking, jumping right up after he got his bath buckets unwrapped.

Christmas Card to all.

Merry Christmas
Wishing you all a merry Christmas and happy New Year.

Love
Tom,Selena, Noah and Jonas

Are we brothers???? Who's who

Jonas Graham Flynn

Hi all,

Well he's here as you know b/c of Tom's and my new blackberries which lets us update facebook and email etc. He's the best and I have to say both Tom and I love having a newborn in our lives. We feel so blessed right now to have two wonderful boys we can't even tell you.

So I did go into labour on my due date(that evening) and who ever(there are a lot of you haha) say the second birth is easier haha it's so not true. I went from a fast to pretty manageable labour with Noah5 hours from start to finish to a hard long just sort of 11 hours start to finish labour with Jonas.

Only few mins old.

Few hours old
Mom and the boys very first meeting.

Waiting to go home

Getting up face to face
Car ride home

Finally home and both are passed out!

few hours

....to go and I will be over due, so depressing not sure if I should have taken her up on being induced today or not but hopefully things well happen soon. So yes, folks I am still pregnant. Next appointment is Monday.

Yup

Still NO BABY, Just to let everyone Know, I am big and pregnant and sore, lost my ankles and I waddle like you wouldn't believe. Also found out my neighbour who we new was due in dec, is actually do the same day as us. So I know she is feeling the same way.